HanoverSquare(追忆似水年华)
Canitreallybesixty-twoyearsagothatIfirstsawyou
Itistrulyalifetime,Iknow.ButasIgazeintoyoureyesnow,itseemslikeonlyyesterdaythatIfirstsawyou,inthatsmallcaféinHanoverSquare.
FromthemomentIsawyousmile,asyouopenedthedoorforthatyoungmotherandhernewbornbaby.Iknew.IknewthatIwantedtosharetherestofmylifewithyou.
IstillthinkofhowfoolishImusthavelooked,asIgazedatyou,thatfirsttime.Irememberwatchingyouintently,asyoutookoffyourhatandlooselyshookyourshortdarkhairwithyourfingers.Ifeltmyselfbecomingimmersedinyoureverydetail,asyouplacedyourhatonthetableandcuppedyourhandsaroundthehotcupoftea,gentlyblowingthesteamawaywithyourpoutedlips.
Fromthatmoment,everythingseemedtomakeperfectsensetome.Thepeopleinthecaféandthebusystreetoutsidealldisappearedintoahazyblur.AllIcouldseewasyou.
AllthroughmylifeIhaverelivedthatveryfirstday.Many,manytimesIhavesatandthoughtaboutthatthefirstday,andhowforafewfleetingmomentsIamthere,feelingagainwhatisliketoknowtruelovefortheveryfirsttime.ItpleasesmethatIcanstillhavethosefeelingsnowafterallthoseyears,andIknowIwillalwayshavethemtocomfortme.
NotevenasIshookandtrembleduncontrollablyinthetrenches,didIforgetyourface.Iwouldsithuddledintothewetmud,terrified,asthehailsofbulletsandmortarscrasheddownaroundme.Iwouldclutchmyrifletightlytomyheart,andthinkagainofthatveryfirstdaywemet.Iwouldcryoutinfear,asthenoiseofwarbeatdownaroundme.But,asIthoughtofyouandsawyousmilingbackatme,everythingaroundmewouldbebecomesilent,andIwouldbewithyouagainforafewpreciousmoments,farfromthedeathanddestruction.ItwouldnotbeuntilIopenedmyeyesonceagain,thatIwouldseeandhearthecarnageofthewararoundme.
Icannottellyouhowstrongmyloveforyouwasbackthen,whenIreturnedtoyouonleaveintheSeptember,feelingbattered,bruisedandfragile.WeheldeachothersotightIthoughtwewouldburst.IaskedyoutomarrymetheverysamedayandIwhoopedwithjoywhenyoulookeddeepintomyeyesandsaid“yes“tobeingmybride.
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